One month.

Every day for a month.

It’s been a month since I started my new job and still I’ve received no real training. It’s extremely frustrating. As a person who needs to know everything, I can’t do any more than wait until someone decides to impart some wisdom and let me suck it up. I’m extremely lucky though, I live close to work, it pays OK and the people are nice and that should probably be enough. It’s not. After actually starting my job I realised I want to be good at, REALLY good at it, climb the ladder and gain respect for my work. This lack of understanding frustrates me. I am one of those people who enjoys understanding and without it because very bored. Constant learning is something I want to do and at the moment I can not.

Loneliness is something that ways heavily on me. After a year of being single I have realised that not having real contact with the opposite sex is depressing. After moving back from University I’ve realised that it’s extremely hard to meet people. People at my age are in two categories: With people or without. I am without. I have amazing friends and that is great but they’re not going to fuck me. As I’m sat here typing this I am thinking of ways to remedy this problem and I am coming up blank. I am extremely awkward, even if I do not seem so. I am loud to cover up that child like shyness. I find it extremely hard to make eye contact and even more impossible to act mature. When acting in a sane manner I can feel and see all my flaws and I panic and go into a regressive state, a state where I’m an arsehole. I’m working on it though and hopefully over the next month, I can update.

Music is a saving grace. Some really good albums have come out lately: Shields - Grizzly Bears, Nocturne - Wild Nothings and the new xx record. While having nothing interesting going on, these records keep me entertained. I do think I should write an album, I think I could. I guess I’m just scared of it being terrible and losing the dream for ever.

That’s all I can be bothered with right now. Will write again tomorrow.

theatlantic:

For The First Time Ever, Astronomers Fit A Billion Stars In One Image

unhistorical:

Cavaliers vs. Roundheads

“Cavalier”, as a term, was probably popularized (with respect to the English Civil War) in the late 1630s or early ’40s, already carrying a derogatory connotation and often appearing alongside the term “Royalist”. The root of the word itself comes from the Latin caballarius - “horseman” - from which chevalier and caballero are also derived. The Cavaliers were probably skilled riders (some of them, anyway), but they are best remembered for their extravagant, elaborate fashion and hairstyles - this, at least, was the image that history has preserved, thanks to artists like Anthony van Dyck. The Parliamentarians and Puritans intended for the word to paint the Royalists as frivolous, dissolute, and hedonistic, though it was eventually rendered obsolete as a political term in the late 1600s, replaced by “Tory”.

“Roundhead” surely was a knock on the short, cropped hairstyles of some of the Puritans, in contrast to the Charles II-style ringlets that were popular with the so-called Cavaliers. According to some sources, this was the case, as an authority describes a crowd in Westminster in 1641:

They had the hair of their heads very few of them longer than their ears, whereupon it came to pass that those who usually with their cries attended at Westminster were by a nickname called Roundheads.

Oliver Cromwell himself wore his hair longer than the typical Roundhead. Like “Cavalier”, the term applied only to a portion of the enemy faction; in this case, only the military and non-Independent Puritans could logically be called “Roundheads”. And, like “Cavalier”, “Roundhead” was succeeded by a different, more modern term - “Whig”.

barbalarga:

when I was a rat
the rat who would be king
I imagined ashes and us alone
always us alone
the rat who would be king - matthew good band

I will never get the drama out of my system, nope

watercolor and marker!!

under-radar-mag:

Wasting little time after announcing the release of their latest album Valtari, Sigur Rós have posted the record’s first single “Ekki Múkk” online to stream. (via Listen: Sigur Rós - “Ekki Múkk” | Under The Radar)

thefader:

NARDWUAR vs. DANNY BROWN

youmightfindyourself:

“Wherever his (Hong Sang-soo) characters go, be it Paris or a Korean resort town, they do the same things: arrange themselves in complicated love triangles, treat others poorly, drink too much, then treat each other even worse. His deliberately artificial camera movements — long pans back and forth, and half-motivated zooms, mostly — treat real space the way a camera usually approaches a photograph or a painting: flattening it, drawing horizontal and diagonal lines to map its elements. He is concerned with atmosphere in the literal sense: the particular qualities of light and air in the types of spaces to which he obsessively returns: beaches, restaurants, apartments.” (via)

gameraddictions:

Artist: Francesco Lorenzetti

One month.

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